great news!

i can finally get off the toilet with out using my hands.... i'm getting better

had a dream

i dreamt last night that i was a forcast of a low for tonight being -10 and tomorrow's was -30

so sore

saturday was my friend bills stag... and the plan was paint ball then dinner then drinks... well the paint balls don't tickle... however i didn't get hit to badly... no marks to show you but i think i was lucky... regardless it's not as bad as i thought it would be... the sore part is in my legs... apparently i'm outta shape... crouching and then getting up and then running then crouching again... sunday i couldn't get up well... i could... but to get outta a chair or off the toilet is an interesting task... as is sitting down... it's all about arm strength... as long as i have something to grab on to and pull myself up i'm not so bad... but do i ever feel it...

paint ball is fun fun fun... it's tuff in the summer especially because the clothes you'll want to wear to escape the blunt force of the impact... and the face mask you have to wear... and want to wear takes away from the direct access to fresh air... so you breath harder and hotter.. and sweating causes the mask to fog up somewhat... at first i wasn't hitting anyone... but at the end i was a killing machine... i was stealthy and focused and i actually managed to take out a few people... it was then that my pants started to fall and when i realized that i was in the spawn point i was asking for punishment so i went running back to my area... at first to pull my pants up and once i got there i was to tired and outta breath to play anymore... so i gave the gun to someone else ..... good times...

this one is for that punk kid arron

it's 2:14 and it's 16 degree's and i can see my breath


i have to say... i saw my breath and i thought it was late fall... but i was in my shorts and tank top and i wasn't cold one bit.... because it's not cold... it's dew point and it's intersting

when i was home in 2002 i remember i was outside on the wireless phone talking to my old pals on the phone card in vancouver... it was a night like tonight and after about 3 hours my fingers looked like i was in a tub for 15 mins... but i never saw my breath .... and interesting on top of that is tonight we had hard rain.... with the first tunder i can recall all summer and of course lighting was the cause.... it was a crasy humid as a result... like sitting near a water fall.... warm but cool and moist...

my guess is seeing my breath has something to do with the warm air inside and the humidity and the cooler moist air just waiting to condence.... dew point comes to mind... i love it... sceince at work.... and summer still has a dieing grasp...... stay tuned for the real hurricane season....

nature rocks.... watch out

pace

well it happened...

i met a nice girl.. and she was trying to quit smoking... and then tonight she gave in... and well i don't date smokers... that's how i roll i won't comprimise.... and as i was prepared to start over earlier with her i now feel that that might not be an option.... i've been very clear about where i stand on certain matters especiallly when it comes to tobacco .... i make no exception... it's not like i'm writing about my every relationship here either... this would be my first.... but this is how it is... i can't date a smoker.... i feel bad that i'm like that... but i can't bend for anything... i have friends that smoke... i preach to them... sure... but they know that i'm only looking out for them... i don't hound... i don't go on at the sight of a smoke pack... i just have my opinion... if people are talking about smoking i'll talk and talk... but i won't say everything i have to say... i'm holding back right here....

my point it that i have a million reason why i shouldn't smoke and a million more why i shouldn't date a smoker or a part time smoker...

it gets interesting for me now because i can't find non smokering women in this day and age... even the non smokers cheat now and then... when the bars were smoking bars... and when i was a smoker i would pick out the smokers because i knew that from a non smokers point of view i wouldn't want to be with a smoker... but i figured i was safe with a smoker ... now as a non smoker in a non smoking bar environment it's hard to see who smokes and who doesn't... cause they come in and they go out... who went to the rest room and who went to the smoking deck.... i'm not a stalker... and even part time smokers don't smoke all the time they drink...

so how am i going find the right non smoker... the last time i quit circa 96 i was good for a year.... i knew i was like a "smoking nazi" but i didn't care... and was probably why i didn't quit... and thanks to my will power and my mom and my last room mate ryan... i kicked it so far.... i don't know if they realized the monster i was about to become.... but i did... and i'm not ashamed... at least true to my conviction... i hope everyone can understand that it's all part of the process... the last thing i want is to belittle someone... but at the same time if you bring that stuff around me i'm probably gonna be at least thinking about something i've probably written here... so 1996 i quit and i was good till 97 it's not womens fault that i started... but it has to do with me choosing to be with a smoker... and it was one or the other... this is how i roll... last time i chose to return to my old ways... and this time i no better... unfortuately i'm not going to be influenced in any way by the opposite sex or my temptations... not that i've had any... if anything this evening has made me stronger...

i'm going to miss her... she was cool... apparently life goes on...

i'll take Jerry Seinfelds attitude... "i'll be ok... everything evens out for me... i'll find someone new" even if i don't it's better than dating a smoker in my books

i know someone who quit smoking... although smoking has been replaced with nicotine gum... it's still better than smoking....

i was thinking the other day that nicotine is probably the least harmful of all the drugs... it's the smoking form of the usage that is harmfull... and smells... chewing tobacco is pretty nasty.... the patch isn't to bad... but well i think the gum would be better
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i'm done ranting.... it's been an evening to say the least...

40 helens agree that big foot has a beautiful sing voice

last week and this week

so it's been over a week...
it was hot
i went swimming.. but not when it was hot... but it's all good...
that's 2 times i went swimming...
music scene is coming to a breaking point.. it's super all good
was at the new water hole saturday... wasn't a bad time... did open mic too... all good... have been doing lots of driving range too... i try.. but i just like the company and sun... and out doors

this week... cards open mic and friends coming home so more golf related fun... aug 30 my friend luke should be around.... from TO... and aug 31 me and him should be doing 3 songs... so cool...

sep 3 wayne is home... and sept 7 we might do some vitamin voodoo songs... or something either way i'm stoked.... apparently only one day to spend with him...but it's all good...after that it's all down hill till my 2nd costume first place win at the h'ween party and my 31st bday... who's getting me my old fart hat?

chica chow

more bugs

ok so it's the 7th of august... summer is almost gone... well wait... looks like were headed for some of the best weather yet... or close to it.. as far as this summer is concerned that is...

i got dig cable this year... it's the same price so why not... but with the convienence i can get the movie channels too.. so why not...

anyways... i'm getting soprano's on the movie channels... i don't need hbo... hurray... it's awesome.... perhaps i'm biased... because i'm watching this ep... but "Commendatori" Episode: #2.4 - 6 February 2000 might just be the funniest episode... the one where tone and a selection of his crew go to italy... it's got some great comedic releif... or what ever...

in the recent past i have gotten into the "6 feet under" i don't know if it was DR. K that turned me on to it... but maybe i was destined for it regardless.. but it's pretty good tooo.. although here on "showcase" were only 2 seasons into it... but on the "movie channel" we're 4 seasons in.. and going on the 5th and final season... so i dont watch em...

but i've seen the soprano's and i'll watch those over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over .... you get the picture

august 7th... it better be nice frickin weather...